Longing!

This is where we are moving soon, very soon! :) 

Complete technology crash, and other things.

And oh, we just (yesterday evening) sold our apartment and bought a house! This Sunday we had a viewing of our apartment and during that time me and my little family went out for lunch, a stroll and a coffee in the beautiful autumn weather.

Oli took this picture!

...and this one.. :)

Enjoying the weather and the view at Sas Radisson in
Hagaparken!

Enjoying coffee and chocolate milk..

No worries, Gusti got some treats too so he was also very
much participating.

Many things have happened since I blogged last time. Some are annoying, others worrying and upsetting. In times like these I feel better if I DO something about it. Things that belong in the annoying area are two broken computers (both my regular AND my back up), two broken phones (again, both my regular and my back up; so long all baby pictures of Gusti taken... grrrr) and one iPad with cracked glass. The worrying things are much more disturbing. My mom had a perforated appendix that was taken out (along with some intestines..) in the end of May and when she came back from her holiday she recieved news of yet another health problem; cancer. This made me utterly sad and worried, not to mention her! BUT I passed on what I have learned about the healing powers of raw food and lent her my raw food cook book (Raw Food by Vibeke Amdisen) which has now become hers and dad's house "Bible". In taking action you feel like you take control, both over body and mind which I think is essential. And I really commend my dad for being such a great sport about the whole vegan thing. He has, in the process, become quite the chef! So now we are only waiting for the operation day, which will be on October 28, and after that the healing process can finally begin. In midst of this Erik and I have been keeping ourselves busy with buying a house with everything that comes with it and selling our apartment. I am really thankful that we, finally after many-many years of searching, found what we wanted, and that the selling process was as quick as it was. Ok so we are not moved in yet but I am still very glad that in a month and a half we will reside in our new house! 

The first time Oli visited his grandparents in Kristianstad alone, April 18-22, 2013

Dad took a train to Stockholm where we met him and waited
for the train to take him and Oliver to Kristianstad. 

...and dad took Oli back aswell!! 

Oli was a wee bit tired from his travels and fell asleep on the
floor while playing with his train and talking about how fun it
was to go by train..

Babylove 2013-04-12.

Mmm the smell of my little baby...
There is no better! 

Lunch with babies, 2013-04-09.

Gusti and I met up Frida and Alex and had a nice lunch at Ulriksdals Trädgårdscafé (http://rappne.nu/tradgardscafeet/tradgardscafeet/). 

Girls' night at home with Sandra, 2013-04-06.

Since Gusti is still very much depending on me (he breastfeeds)
I can't really go anywhere, so it was nice to have a friend over
and talk about other things than babies for a while (when they
were napping that is).

Shorter hair and lighter colour, April 4, 2013.

Do you see how much shorter one
side is to the other?! NOT happy!

When I first came home from the hairdresser I wasn't too impressed. I asked her to only cut a little from the lengths but instead she took more than 10 cm and on top of that it was crooked. So I went back to correct it. But the colour was at least satisfying. 

New morning routine, April 6, 2013.

Oliver starts our day by bidding us good morning at 7, then crawling up into Gusti's bed and into ours to kiss and hug us. It's a very cozy way to start ones morning, if you ignore the part when Oli uses our bed as a trampoline.. 

Friends over for dinner, April 4-5, 2013.

Oliver helped with the preparations..

The Stigtomta gang ;)

Oli got a haircut. Not too pleased
with the result but it will grow out. 

Peppe and Tine came to visit from
Oslo and Gusti took a liking to the
former and relaxed.

My first six months of 2013.

So I have been really down and out for the first half of this year. I had no energy whatsoever and I only managed to drag myself out of bed to do the most basic things; feed the kids, get Oli to and fro daycare and that was kind of it. I didn't realize how out of it I was because I blocked all kinds of feelings, but I knew that I "should" enjoy my kids more than I did and I "should" have energy to do something else than what I did. I don't know if it was the weather (the cold and the darkness can make anyone feel out of it) or the fact that I was home with two kids and on a strict daycare schedule that didn't allow for any extended daytime (or nighttime, but that was because of breastfeeding) excursions. I probably could have utilized the four hours I had to "myself" (with Gusti) every day, but I didn't and that left me feeling trapped in the situation. In addition, Erik got to manage a project at work that he had been wanting to do for over two years so that made him also quite absent at home. Then the sun and the summer came and thankfully, after six weeks of holiday with my family, I am starting to feel like myself again. Now I am a human being that feels her feelings and is able to think (more) rationally about things and noticing things. My energy levels are higher but still not quite there yet. I think that most of my lack of energy for the moment can be accredited to the lack of sleep I am experiencing. Gusti, who started out as a sound sleeper, has been waking me up everything in between two to six times a night and it is wearing me down. But I have a plan. In a weeks time I will start the same regimen that Oli went on, that is food and sleep the same hour every day, according to what Anna Wahlgren suggests in her book "Sova hela natten" (www.annawahlgren.com). It worked wonders with Oli and I expect it to do the same with Gusti. Then I can get my sleep back and my energy. That is a two week project and after that I am planning on getting myself in shape again. I hope I feel up for it, for everyone who has been out of shape and got back into it knows how strenuous that can be. Therefore I hope, with all of my heart, that I have the energy to want to do it and then to follow through. I need my body to be strong again. All this carrying is taking its toll on me (Oli is 17kg and Gusti well over 9kg).

Many of you have wondered why I haven't been blogging as I usually do, and all of the above is the (very long) explanation. But I'm back now, and that is all that matters!

(I will be posting everything from last time until now, so please bear with me.) 

Potty training!

Some more bed climbing.. 2013-04-06.

Erik and Oli took a nap and I took a snapshot..

A very-active-and-not-tired-at-all baby.

Oh so mischievous Oli..

This is what I call "the innocent look".

Oli's self portrait of his feet.

Oli's portrait of me.

Nap time...

Oli climbed into Gusti's bed and thought he would help him help fall asleep..

Juicing!

I love my new toy in the kitchen!